10.5.00 - 01:07:12
I'm no fun anymore. I'm not even remotely close to fun. I'm so far away from fun that I can't even see it from where I'm standing. I'm nearly convinced that not only does fun not exist but that it never did.
Nevertheless, I go on and I'm hoping it gets better. It absolutely has too because I'm not sure how long I can weigh the balance between "hang myself" and "smoke a cigarette". Honestly, if those were your two choices, what would YOU pick?
Just so you don't feel too badly for me, I have a terrifically supportive husband and some outstanding friends who are making sure I get through this. I fake being good-natured very well so that they keep on liking me. I'm not sure what I'd do if they stopped liking me. I sort of need them right now. I rarely need people. It's not flattering and is certainly . . . not fun.
Anyway, there is no way I want my little corner of Al Gore's Internet (did he suck or did he SUCK during the debate--I wanted to punch that smarmy little smirk right off his face) to turn into some sort of schmaltzy twelve step kumbaya let's all support Pinch in the hard hard thing she's doing place. I loathe that sort of thing. I loathe it and need it. Oh good Lord, just shot me now and put us BOTH out of our misery.
Shit.
Here's a pig and here's me faking it. I'm pretty good, huh. Do you still like me?
I'd squeeze his body lifeless for a cigarette.
(Wow, now THAT'S mean!)
Notified readers get a few more lines of this tripe. I sort of feel sorry for them, don't you?
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V qb ybir lbh, naq gurer'f abguvat ryfr V pna guvax bs gb fubj lbh zl ybir naq nccerpvngvba. Fb vs lbh unir nal vqrnf gung qba'g vaibyir, fnl, beny erjneqf, yrg zr xabj.
